Saturday, April 23, 2011

A Few Things

Okay, been a few weeks since I posted... Here we go...

Things have been pretty good. I'm still falling for this certain girl. It's so tough because I don't know what she is thinking half the time. Text communication is killing me. So, I'm trying to change it. I have called her the past few days. Everytime, she texts me about how happy she is to talk to me. Yet, she doesn't ever try to call me... I can understand that she thinks I may be working, but really? You can't leave a message?

I really want to just be with her. I'm constantly hoping that things will just happen and she'll want to move down here and be with me... We'll see if that ever happens.

She did come down and visit me for a few days. It was one of the best times that I have ever had. I couldn't tell anyone though. She's still not sure if she wants people to know that she's into me or not.. I don't know how that makes me feel. I would tell the world. I guess I'm just not as important as I'd like to be. But, like the saying says, "Just because someone isn't loving you as much as you'd like, doesn't mean that they aren't loving you with everything that they have."

Oh well. Time will tell. I've just felt very insecure about it for a while. Especially in the last hour or so. It'll get better....

Monday, April 4, 2011


Had my performance appraisal today at work. My sup. said that everything was going well. I don't know if I agree at this moment. I mean, yes, things are just continuing right along. I haven't been striving to excell. I need to step it up... I shall say it again!! STEP IT UP!!!! Waiting to see what the future brings. I'm hoping for a sign that things will actually happen in the love department. There is definatly somone that I'm hoping to continue seeing. So far, things have been amazing. The distance hasn't really been as difficult as I thought it would be. I think I just need her to decide if she actually wants to move down this way or not. I'm blessed to have her in my life no matter what happens. Of course, I'm not going to tell her exactly how I feel. May not be prudent. We'll see what happens. No matter what, it's time to step it up in everything... DO WORK!!!!!!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Today's creativity

I wasn't as creative as I wanted to be. However, I did create a decent dinner. I baked a bone in ribeye covered in Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ, with boxed Jullian potatoes, Stove-top Stuffing and fresh green beans.. Hahaha I know, I know... The extra stuff isn't good. (except for the steamed fresh green beans) but it's better than going to McDonalds. It's the effort that counts. haha Okay, to be more creative tomorrow...

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Year and a Half

Really? Has it been that long? I need to be able to do this more often... So much has changed. By myself in California. New job doing almost the same thing. Missing a woman that I've only met a few times...

Yet, I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. I can't wait for the future... Bring it on!